I’ve been too quiet recently. Not on purpose, not for any good reason, but I’ve been very busy with a handful of projects as well as going through a lot emotionally and professionally coupled with moving and being extra introspective and that’s lead to me thinking rather than blogging. Of course this hasn’t gotten me anywhere and after a few conversations with friends in the last few days I’m reminded that my best thought sorting always happens in public where I’m forced to solidify thoughts at least to the point that form sentences which is leaps and bounds ahead of vague collections of muck flying in circles inside my head. Even it it makes no sense to you, it helps make sense to me. I’ve done this for as long as I can remember actually, originally on paper and later online but it helps me sort things and it’s a form of self therapy. I pulled back and a few people kicked me and reminded me that I need to keep moving so I’m going to make the effort to do that.
I want to let you know how important it is to me that you even read this. I frequently have to remind myself that someone out there is listening, because if left to my own I quickly convince myself that there’s no reason anyone would give a shit what I had to say about anything and it’s really overwhelming that many of you all do. I really mean that, and I couldn’t have gotten through much of the things I have if it wasn’t for bouncing ideas around here and talking to many of you online and off. I’ve been using my twitter account a lot, and I don’t plan to change that, but it’s not a substitute for this. Soul searching doesn’t happen in 140 characters or less. That’s great for casual updates, random thoughts and coordinating but actually pouring it all our and trying to figure out what the hell I’m doing and thinking, not so much.
I say I’m going to write more right now, and I mean it right now, but a week from now I might get busy and slack and that’s where you come in. If I go 24 hours without writing something here, and I don’t mean just a few links or pointing to something someone else is up to, but actually sitting down and hashing out some bit of a topic, it would be a huge motivational help for me if one you to kick me. Leave a comment here, send me an e-mail (my name at gmail), dmsg or @reply to me on twitter, or something – but don’t let me get away with pulling back. I need to talk through things to figure them out and I need you to force me to do that.
So just what is it I need to talk about? An easier question would be what don’t I have to talk about. I’ve got a text file sitting on my desktop with a list of things I need to write about or think about or process to some extent and it’s over 2 pages long now. It grows every day and only shrinks when I write so that’s what I need to get through. Life. Love. Dating. Speaking. Moving. Metblogs. Bikes. Blogs. Being wrong. Being influential. Communities. Chaos. World changing. Revolution. I’ve got a lot on my mind. So yeah, that’s my plan.