And a good day to you

In the past few days I’ve gotten a handful of super nice holiday e-mails from friends packed full of all kinds of nice things that I wish I’d been considerate enough to think of sending to my friends, family, and loved ones (none of which overlap of course). Every time I got another one I thought that would be the catalyst to get me to do it however every time I started I thought what I was writing sounded dumb and then started worrying about all the people I needed to send it to and who I’d forget and if one group of them would get the same jokes that another group of them would get or whatever. And then I’d delete the e-mail and go pretend to do something more important.

The truth is my friends, family, and loved ones are the single most important thing to me, each one more important than the others (don’t try and figure it out, just run with it) and nothing I could ever say would encompass exactly how I feel. What I do want to say is thanks. Thanks for everything, the good, the bad, all of it. The pats on the head, the kisses on the cheek, the kicks in the balls. I wouldn’t be where I am right now, I wouldn’t be who I am right now with out each and every one of them, and each and every one of you. For that I’m eternally grateful. I’m sure I’ve never told you all that in person, and no matter how much I intend to as I write this I’m pretty sure I will continue not to going forward. So be it. You know who you are, and I really can’t thank you enough. I hope no matter what you are doing today, and this week, that it makes you smile and that you can get away, even for a few moments, from whatever bullshit you have to deal with the rest of the year.

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Reindeer Games

One of my daily stops on this wild web is my recent activity page on flickr where I can see which photos I’ve posted that people have commented on. Recently I was talking with a few friends about the different uses of flickr, some people use it as a showcase for their best photography and others use it as a bit of a window into their lives. I fit in the latter category, and so it’s interesting for me to see what people think about what I saw or noticed enough to put online. Yesterday there was a new holiday wish posted on this photo:

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It was an innocent enough comment, but I really wasn’t something I was expecting. Not so much the comment, but seeing that photo. You see, that photo isn’t recent. It’s from last year, Christmas eve on 2006. I’m not really sure where I’m headed with this post so if it seems scattered please forgive me. For whatever reason I’ve never been a huge fan of Christmas. I mean, I appreciate the concept of what it all stands for but it always struck me as the kind of thing people should just be doing all year around, not just on one day at the end of the year. Plus for the majority of my life the entire holiday season was filled with some kind of family related stress. This wasn’t anyone’s fault, and I don’t mean to sound like I’m complaining because I know everyone always had the best intention but there’s something about being worried if you bought someone the right gift so as not to hurt their feelings, how to react if someone didn’t buy you the right gift so as not to hurt their feelings, how to react if someone bought you a gift which tells you very clearly they don’t know who you are at all so as not to hurt their feelings, who to spend what time with so as not to hurt their feelings? See the theme here? Rather than just relaxing and enjoying friends and family this time of year has traditionally been, for me at least, a lot of juggling so as not to hurt other peoples feelings. The cliche about needed a vacation after a vacation was never more true than when I’d return from Christmas holidays. Plus all the drama about the consumerism of it – are you buying gifts for everyone you should be, are those gifts in the right price range, what about people you bought gifts for last year but haven’t seen since, is it rude to not spend money on them this year. It goes on and on. I couldn’t wait for it to be over, really.

I’m Too Sexy For Teh Webs

Last night via IM from the other side of the world Crystal tipped me off to the global conspiracy to make me blush so bad that I pass out, which if true being named on Violet Blue‘s list of Top 10 Sexiest Geeks of 2007 is checkmate. That means she’s thinking dirty thoughts about me, which is just too much to handle! Wow… Major huge congrats to my fellow winners (who are all totally out of my league) Veronica, Frontalot, Ariel, Dino, Tanja, Jonathan, Leah, Gina and Kurt. As well as the awesome runners up. Finally, some web press that actually means something and that I might be able to work to my advantage. Hello ladies!